How backwards it all is. As if I've set out to prove something. As if I need 'prove' I've sat here writing this message. No one could prove I didn't regardless inevitably leaving wanting. Backwards as if there were some inevitable thing I missed. A mark I can never hit. A target that doesn't even exist. Body locked in mind. Searching out such desperation. Such determination to hide.
Yet as we all surely already know it was never about any of that rather it was to bend another to one's own whim. As if one might 'prove' they can for no particular reason nor conscious or particularly responsible desire but a subconscious, animal, instinctive compulsion toward domination as if a hand of a 'god' molding it's 'clay'. Hiding as if within a grand premonition like a dream of nightmares unfolding a revelation of unforgivable sins hidden within merely to wake up to just another day.
Meaningless in a world with no physical end nor nothing can physically begin, merely an arbitrary sense of the balance unfluctuating, the same that might lead one to believe we live on a flat and ultimately even plane, what lies above or below an unreachable mystery, that couldn't possibly be moving at thousands of miles per hour, yet one so bold might seek to convince me, not them but I one might suppose, on a random day in space time I 'began' to exist at a moment one may never recall while on another equally random moment my physical existence shall indeed defy the cosmos bringing an infinite 'end' to it all. Such arrogance to behold. Deep within they surely know exactly how they lie. Just how insane. Yet so aloof. To make such a claim.
Just for me. Holding up such same, such 'science', as such 'great' evidence. But I see no 'proof', merely bait, that I could or even might invite be provided for what meagre amusement might issue forth blind however this rests on the cusp, overshadowed and dwarfed by all else, as if I've just invited everyone to go kill themselves. Out of sheer unfathomable spite. To be frank I've said enough if you don't mind.
No I think I'll just settle for the reminds having written this message regardless. Thanks.
Good times.