So...I have a story I want to tell. Crazy shit.

damn-I-Suck

[12] Conqueror
A little backstory:

About a year ago I transfered to another machine in the paper converting plant where I work. I work in Greensboro, NC. The guy I trained under, Peter, has recently retired and I was promoted to senior operator. They always have 2 people run the machines. So my company needed to hire someone to work under me as my apprentice so to speak. So this guy named Cody starting working with me about a month ago. He was pretty sharp, he learned fast, showed initiative, worked hard. He was one of those good'ol'boy bible thumping types. I don't care for religion myself but all I cared about was his work ethic.

So now the story:

So on monday he did a no-call no show. Had to work by myself. Then today, same thing. No one knows where the fuck he's at. And then I find out about 1Am from the guy who runs the machine next to mine that he FUCKING ROBBED A BANK monday morning. Showed me the news on his phone. My mind was blown. I NEVER saw that coming. He didn't seem like that kind of guy at all. Here's a link to the news article below. I guess you never know who you're working with.

https://www.greensboro.com/news/cri...cle_42816802-0fa5-53da-aa98-08c6e10b1991.html
 
Hate to bring a dead horse back to life, but that's sadly nothing new.

Many people hide behind religion and know Jesus, but they're just as sinful as the next dude. I've had my moments like that, but after awhile I have to repent. 2018 being that year I backslid. Nevertheless, I'm still alive and God helped me recover which is why I'm comfortable sharing this with you.


There's knowing Jesus and then there's having a relationship with him. I've been on both sides so you can't disappoint Jesus since He knows our issues. Problem is we can get caught up in the wrong moment, fall down, and wallow in misery.

Rather than to draw near to Him, we fill the void with games, girls, books, etc. Eventually we get apathetic to God because we look for a quick fix and want God to bless us on our terms. Or we only call out to Him when stuff is too hard.


Truth is, life is a jerk. We can cast blame on anything but ourselves. When in actuality, the solution is simple. Just accept Jesus. In John 3:3. It clearly states we must be born again. Sounds cryptic and whacked out at first, but it just means a supernatural spiritual rebirth. Turning away from the old dirty life that wrecked you.

A good illustration would be I Pocky Yoshi had suicidal thoughts before I bowed my knee on December of 2013. When I said a sinners prayer I felt all the burden left my shoulders. It was weird, but I felt at peace. Sure I had issues still, but I just felt God's grace and love to the point people who know me best thought I lost it. Just because I was a newborn in Christ.


Then in 2018, I backslid due to my pride, being careless, going back to porn, and almost going back to suicide. However, God still forgave me. It took time to feel that peace again, but I understand how to live in a flawed world better.

You just try. You fight. You rely on God and he'll show you how to get on by in life. He ain't looking for a perfect Christian. Jesus died for every sin of ours so we can be free. We all fall short. The bible has flawed people bar Jesus(who is God in the flesh) that you can relate to if you read it. Like David.


Honestly the Gospel is offensive, because it's the only thing bar none that drives evil away. However, it only works if the individual who accepts Jesus studies it and lives it to the best to his ability out of love to Him and others like yourself.

In any case, I ain't forcing you to accept Him because you got your own free will. Just sharing how my fragile life is still intact thanks to Jesus.
 
ONE LOOK AT CODY'S FACE AND YOU SHOULD'VE KNOWN HE WAS A BANK ROBBER IN THE MAKING.

ALSO, LOL AT "GOING BACK TO PORN" LIKE IT'S A CRIME. I HOPE MY LOVE FOR BIMBOS IS CELEBRATED ALONG WITH MY GRAVE SIN OF GETTING A VASECTOMY. I WOULDN'T WISH FOR ANY MORE PEOPLE TO END UP DELUSIONAL LIKE POCKY OR PRETENDING LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL DEEP DOWN.
 
ONE LOOK AT CODY'S FACE AND YOU SHOULD'VE KNOWN HE WAS A BANK ROBBER IN THE MAKING.

ALSO, LOL AT "GOING BACK TO PORN" LIKE IT'S A CRIME. I HOPE MY LOVE FOR BIMBOS IS CELEBRATED ALONG WITH MY GRAVE SIN OF GETTING A VASECTOMY. I WOULDN'T WISH FOR ANY MORE PEOPLE TO END UP DELUSIONAL LIKE POCKY OR PRETENDING LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL DEEP DOWN.
My point I made to Darn-I-Suck is people make mistakes....even Christians. Christians are nothing more than redeemed sinners who sin less because of God. Sinners just sin just to well...sin and prefer to go on pleasure. That may encourage people take it out of context and say I might as well sin abundantly then.

Sadly, can you lie to people forever just to escape your own reality? Can you have sex with anything and survive? Can you smoke and expect your lungs to stay the same? Of course not. Eventually, you will reach the breaking point....if you have common sense. Which I know you do.


That aside, life must have been a real jerk to you. Is allowing your sin to pork you up the rear your way of coping with it?

Seriously. Why the hate towards God bro?

To show you again a testimony from God so you know I ain't faking it.
2018 sucked for me. Backslid. Lost all my grandparents. Lost my dream job. Survived a crash accident on a bridge that could of killed me yet I came out without a scratch.

Despite that, I had a choice to blame God and peers who serve Him. However, I chose to man up make a change so God can help me. So you see, I still fight through the issues of life on my terms. As long as I do right by God first, then he'll show me how to keep it positive because I'm not a positive person by nature.


The question still remains like a broken record: Why the hate towards God bro?
 
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