Giving Up

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I have matches like this sometimes. And i still play
 
It is especially poignant because I don't just try to play fighting games competitively, but I'm a competitive fencer as well, and practically all the same problems I have in SC I have in fencing. I'm an above-average competitor, but I fail to recognize my own strengths and weaknesses. I just do things, without having any good idea why I do them. Somehow I'm good enough that it works against most people, but when it doesn't, it really doesn't, and my failure to understand why I failed ensures it will happen again.

I can't shout obscenities at a fencing match though, cause that will get you a Black Card. But I did break my hand punching a wall once.
Hey, that's neat. I used to fence too. I never went to any tournaments though.
 
But I do truly feel stagnant. I understand on a cognitive level that losing to players much better than you will help you grow stronger, but I fail to turn that into actual personal growth because I don't understand what caused me to lose in the first place. Rage, frustration, and depression cloud my thoughts, and by the time the match is over I've completely forgotten every detail besides the fact that I lost. Which I then reinforce by screaming obscenities at my television.
In that case, focus on calming down. You can't really accomplish anything if you get so mad you don't understand why your opponent is doing what they are doing. You're only as ever as good as your last match. If you lose, who cares? People don't make judgements about your personal worth over a game.

It's not like I sit around thinking "Oh I just beat that guy. He must have syphilis and sex up homeless dogs."

Run it back next match. Or next week, whatever.
 
But I do truly feel stagnant. I understand on a cognitive level that losing to players much better than you will help you grow stronger, but I fail to turn that into actual personal growth because I don't understand what caused me to lose in the first place. Rage, frustration, and depression cloud my thoughts, and by the time the match is over I've completely forgotten every detail besides the fact that I lost. Which I then reinforce by screaming obscenities at my television.

I understand your problem. I suffer from the same problem in my other major endeavor besides semi-competitive gaming, which is jazz saxophone. In these media sometimes it's very hard to quantify how to best improve yourself, but nowadays we have the added benefit in SC of the replay tool. Next time you lose a game you feel like you should have won, or get absolutely steamrolled, check out the replay and take a look at what your opponent was doing to counter your play. Chances are you may have fallen into a predictable pattern, or used a move often that is very unsafe. Also, don't forget to check out some replays where you won a match and analyze the things you did well in the game to reinforce those habits, and also to help your self-esteem :P

Another thing that happens to me after a very close match is that I think to myself, "man, i really wish I did X more in that match." When those thoughts pop into your head, act on them! Head into training mode and practice doing X, and before you know it it'll be a big part of your gameplay.
 
Look man, I have a fucking 80-ish% win ratio on ranked. Does that mean shit? No! I play Nightmare, Patroklos, Pyrrha, Pyrrha Omega, and I troll with Siegfried. Still don't mean anything at all. Just play the damn game to have fun, man, that's what it is for. If I fought Keev and got raped 30-0 I wouldn't be mad, or sad about it, I'd be damn happy I'd got the opportunity to play against a person that I fucking idolize, man. Watching Keev has taught me half of everything I know about Nightmare in SCV, I'd be happy just shaking the man's hand. I play people like Idlemind and HRD every now and then, and they kill the shit out of me! It's just a chance to learn some, dude.
TL;DR: Stop being a pussy man, you are GONNA lose. So fucking what?
 
Rage, frustration, and depression cloud my thoughts, and by the time the match is over I've completely forgotten every detail besides the fact that I lost. Which I then reinforce by screaming obscenities at my television.
That's why you gotta save those replays, man.

Save those replays, go cool off, then come back and analyze those replays like a cold scientist. No emotion, just facts.

Lose often, lose hard, save the replay, analyze. I can personally guarantee you that if you put in the work you can push around even seasoned offline players.

Online may not be that great, it may not have a lot of things, but one thing it has is a feedback loop. Get on that shit. For real.
 
Went to Evo, went 1-2 in pools, lost a money match, lost like 20-fucking-games of "first hit" with Ramon, and couldn't beat MysticBill using random character select. Some of the guys were even making fun of me and telling me how much I sucked. It was very disheartening, but I'm still playing. In fact, I'm spending my free time now writing a matchup guide for my character in order to help me better understand myself, my character's potential, and her matchups. One day I promise won't be free.

Anyways, fighting off those nerves just comes with practice and experience. If you don't know the matchup against Dampierre for example, you're going to be be scared to move. Oof will read that and will fuck you over with his gimmicks until you die. If you do know the matchup, then just take risks, be creative, and most importantly have fun! This IS a video game after all (haha). The nerves will go away eventually, but it does take time. A whole lot of it.
 
I've been a fan of SC for years. And I am still pretty terrible, maybe at best "average" when it comes to fighting other people. Or at least fighting people online who clearly know what they are doing better than I am. I only recently started battling others online and it can be a bit frustrating and discouraging when you're on a losing streak. But everyone starts somewhere. I don't think I'll ever be as good as the "experts" and such but ideally I'll be at a point where I'm not a constant failure, lol. In the end, it's just a game.
 
I've gotten beat many times, but because of my determination to win and simply the love of the game, I've had my share of surprised wins against players who normally wipes the floor with me. Be encouraged, and take on the challenge. You can do it man! It takes allot of beatings to get stronger. I may not be the best of the best...not yet anyway, but I see myself as a sleeping bumble bee that needs to get slapped around a couple of times before I can put the sting on. XD There's a first time for everything. And no one is a perfect gamer. Even the most skilled fighters has their weakness, and you just have to challenge them often enough to find it. Real life is like this too. Beatings of life certainly builds character, and one day you'll look back at this and appreciate how far you've made it. Just take it one step at a time. Allot of these great gamers got extremely good at what they do because it's all about having the right attitude. Especially in the Soul Cal world, attitude is everything. Sometimes you have to think like a winner before you can become a winner. Please be encourage man. You can do it. ^^
 
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